MASK

                 I don't know whats affecting me so badly that i wish to cry every day....

                                      Maybe its songs....maybe its thoughts...

                            Its like the moment i feel that i am not doing anything...

                              somewhere near the heart i feel something strange... 

            like lungs have stored so much air that it becomes difficult for me to speak..

                                                   and can't let the air go....

            and for those moments i feel like i have gulped something which is much larger

               than i can swallow...and as if its a game in which i cant spit what i gulped...

                                                 then i feel warmth in my eyes....

                                         which wants to flow in form of hot tears...

                                     warming my cheeks and pacifying the mind..

                                    I am unaware about the reason behind this...

                   all i managed to notice is that during those moments i am usually alone....

                                                          my senses almost dead..

          unable to help myself all i mange to do is smile sarcastically when someone notices..

                       hiding the fact that there is something behind this smiling mask.....

                                                   a face full of scars....‪#‎todescribecrying‬
                 
                                                                                                               ~Ajay